Dying

When i say i want to die, u know, i don't really. I just feel it would be nice if i am dead at this instance, then i can rest as much as i want, geez what a lazy slut i am.... Apart from the very bad situation i'm in now, with all that skin problems, i generally still love my life here, although everything is like not in control and wiggle woggle all the time, it is interesting.

Before i came here, whenever i feel like dying, i would start thinking which way to get there. Crazy little me used to write about my own suicide process, like how i press the cold blade onto my throbbing veins, blood flow out of the wound and roam across the table.... which is funny when i think about it now. The main purpose actually, is because writing this can help me to practice on my essay. But the feeling of writing my own suicide essay is quite unique, so dizzy and deep into imagination i was, and then there comes the feeling like i'm insane.

But anyhow, i never point a knife on my wrist or feel like want to jump down from my balcony, i still treasure my life, for my parents and this world that is sometimes beautiful. Sometimes when we feel like dying and then we see something so beautiful, it touches our heart and makes us regret.

My sem 4 print making record. Project 1

Burden 3

Burden 1




Burden 2


Tests.

I like these hands. Well, din get to use em tho.

My first attempt in tone etching and rubbing.

All the limbs in a line. Super fast rubbing! =D

Fail: Both colo and etch board has the same size.

Etched tones.

Rubbed tones.

Without tones.

These are my print making artworks for my second year, 4th semester. I wanted to do local fairy tales as my main theme at first, but i feel so unexcited when i have everything fixed down, so i decided to throw that away and try to start by doing experiments. I love the effects of etching, so i conduct experiments using etching, mainly using hard ground. Next, is to find something to combine with etching. Monoprint was too strong, it is mostly good enough by itself and i can't control it to be the same everytime i print them. So i merge it with colograph, which worked! And then what continues is endless rubbing on those boards. Quite a nightmare, but i love them still.

Burden series- The idea was not with me when i started, it just grow when i move along in making them. It is about how we pick up burdens in our life, we think it is something protective to us, but it is making us into weird creatures.