meeting Tew Nai Tong

We were assigned to have an interview with any local artist, and like any college students would, we looked for the one nearest to us. We thought it's going to be scary, nervous we were, wondering outside the house of the artist, dare not ring the bell. And here goes Sin Joe, my classmate, heading straight with no fear. Well, actually, its just like having tea with an artist, he was very friendly and was like our teacher.

Washed by time, his hair was greyish white, fair and loose skin with heavy eye pockets, looks great when smilling. There was one thing he said that keep on ringing in my mind. The time he chose to become an artist was not perfect, artists were poor and unsuccessful, but he still choose to be an artist. He thinks that he gets to live this life no matter he is poor or rich, he still get this one life, one and only life, and he loves drawing enough to give up any other materialistic reasons. This is something i dare not think about sometimes, i was thinking this way, but i never get to the bottom.

Well, besides this, we had a lot of talk and photo sessions that were very interesting. He said we should stick on to something that we love to do and work hard on it, he really mean stick to only ONE thing. The process to finding ur right path is difficult, we have to work hard for about 8 years, and get our butt into exhibitions and throwing exhibitions, be active. Since i moved on to this place, to the art school, i never really did completely let go of my original path, the path i was expected to move on to. I occasionally turn back to imagine, what would i have become if i didn't change, am i going the right way after all? I was not brave enough to live for art, i hope to change, to gather my courage.

Eczema

And i scratch till i bleed, actually it's just like opening the seal of my flesh to get the blood out. It's not what i like to do, really, but i don't know how to stop it. The doctor said it's pressure and gave me steroid cream and some medicine, that caused my eyes to get allergy.

And so i thought, am i doing this to myself to get attention from other people? or am i asking for others to pity me? I don't understand. Sometimes i scratch until my hand feels sore. Every time i try to hold them back, stop scratching myself, it will work for a day or two, and i can't stand it when the itch becomes overwhelming, and all the blood seals will be opened again. Dead skin cells and blood on my fingernails and clothes and even my bed sheet.

People tells me, i have to believe that my skin will recover, THEN it will recover, it didn't work, maybe i don't know how to believe. When i'm in the middle of some work, i will even stop everything and concentrate to stop me from scratching.

You know, the part that i hate most in this eczema thing, is when i have to bath, the water hurts me, the shampoo sting my flesh.

I pray, that eczema will leave me alone soon, and i can look back at this blog someday, wearing a short skirt and a smile. :)

print playing 1#

What i did after print making, can't finish the printing colors that i took out and i think it'd be such a wast to just throw it away, so i make these :-) These are just a part of what i did, others were left at school. I love these, hope i can make them into something one day

brush teeth

Yay~ i found what i wana do for my portrait painting! Hm, i like this idea a lot, and so i shall try my best to do well in this. cheers to myself!

Hm... my first entry of this blog, i'm uh trying with the stuffs and jz post this for a little fun and as a memory for attemps in doing college assignments. This one is like for human disfigure or something like that. But this is a failed one but i like the lightings, so i post this up, to get myself started with bloggies~ =D